Yellow heart

The way i missed you, cant be real and cant be discripe. I something think iam selfish as i only think of what you missed out in my life and not thinking of the life you have. But i used to share everything with you. Every call every facetime

I know my life go on but in moments i wish you where here to celebrite it with me.

Feels like i cant be 100% happy cause the person i use to celebrite is not here anymore.

I dont know if my sadness is becuase your are not with is anymore or i just missed you.

Maybe if i accept that you are gone i will feel beter but iam scarec that i will forget you.

I got all this new memories without you. Iam scared that my memories of you will faint.

The angry that i have inside me for you not fighting in that hospital bed is unreal. Why not fight abit more. Why not fight harder to stay longer.

I was asked to spread your ashes but i not ready and that willmean i must forgive you for leaving me that your are not here anymore.

I read the meaning of a yellow heart, i soulmate that is not a partner. You were my yellow heart. Not my child, not a patner but a soulmate.