If I was happy

(Verse 1)

I’ve been holding on to shadows, keeping them close

A fortress made of sorrow, it’s all I’ve ever known

Every laugh feels foreign, every smile’s a lie

I’ve learned to live in silence, where dreams come to die

(Pre-Chorus)

But what if there’s a way, a world I’ve never seen?

A place beyond the pain, a life I’ve never been?

(Chorus)

If I was happy, who would I be?

Would I lose myself, would I finally feel free?

I’m scared to let it in, scared to let it show

What if I’m nothing without this ache I know?

Living in my agony, it’s my identity

I don’t know who I’d be, if I was happy

(Verse 2)

The weight of every memory, it keeps me tied down

The ghosts of all my failures, they wear my old crown

But freedom feels so heavy, it’s too much to bear

What if I let it go, and there’s nothing there?

(Pre-Chorus)

Could I even take the light, after all the dark?

Would it heal the cracks, or just break my heart?

(Chorus)

If I was happy, who would I be?

Would I lose myself, would I finally feel free?

I’m scared to let it in, scared to let it show

What if I’m nothing without this ache I know?

Living in my agony, it’s my identity

I don’t know who I’d be, if I was happy

(Bridge)

Maybe it’s safer here in the storm

Where the hurt feels like home, where I’m never alone

But what if I’m wrong, what if there’s peace?

What if I could be more than this grief?

(Final Chorus)

If I was happy, would I find my place?

Would I see myself, or just an empty face?

I’m scared to let it in, but I’m scared to let it go

Caught between the walls of a life I’ll never know

Living in my agony, it’s been all I’ve ever seen

But maybe I’ll find out… who I’d be if I was happy

(Outro)

If I was happy…

If I was happy…

Would I finally be free?