YOU-SIZED HOLE

I saw you the other day beneath a fading sky

Talking with some boy and laughing like you never cried

You looked beautiful, untouched by what we lost

While I’m still counting every silence, every cost

I don’t know how you do it

Walk so light while I sink through it

I’m still hollow where your love used to live

Still holding on to what you didn’t want to give

You said it was over and walked away clean

But I’m still trapped inside what we used to mean

There’s a you-sized hole in my life—

And it eats me alive

Eats me alive

I smile all day just to break at night

Break at night

How did you leave me so easy?

How did you kill what we used to be?

I’m still down here where you dropped me to die—

In this you-sized hole…

This hole in my life

Clock in, clock out, same empty parade

Small talk and coffee and pretending I’m okay

Everybody says time does what time can do

But time just echoes rooms that still belong to you

You’ve obviously moved on

Like what we had was already gone

And I keep searching for the fault in me

Like pain is something reasoned out logically

You dropped our story like a stone in black water

I’m still drowning farther and farther

There’s a you-sized hole in my life—

And it eats me alive

Eats me alive

I smile all day just to break at night

Break at night

How did you leave me so easy?

How did you kill what we used to be?

I’m still down here where you dropped me to die—

In this you-sized hole…

This hole in my life

You left a hole… a hole in me

Cold as the dirt where love should be

You moved on clean

I still bleed

How—did—you—leave?

How—did—you—leave?

I’m alive but something died...

There’s a you-sized hole in my life—

And it eats me alive

Eats me alive

I smile all day just to break at night

Break at night

How did you leave me so easy?

How did you kill what we used to be?

I’m still down here where you dropped me to die—

In this you-sized hole…

This hole in my life

I saw you the other day…

And you looked happy.

I wish I knew how.