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Try to understand, love, I need my own way.

So take your chances, love, I genuinely hope you do,

My choice is made; now I breathe

This is goodbye, and I’ll find who I’m

Each memory i remember is a lessons learned from pain

I still got your pictures in my phone.

Still call your phone to hear you say hello

Sunshine and butterflies get a little closer

Whisper in your ear (this is closure)

It's about time that I told ya no more games

Girl this is really over

No, it's true. Do you remember me like I remember you? What? How we carry on How I walk and talk with you Sunshine butterflies Come close You and I come around This closure of the sky Sunshine and butterflies

Think of the past us a river, but I won't drown in the rain

I've been to my lowest now look at me I'm hella stronger again

Transforming the pain into courage, not fears

Yeah, I find my solace in the open air,

Took a leap forward, let go of despair

They say they love me

But why tell me when I'm gone

yeah, I deserve to be loved the same way you want to be loved to Loving me ain't easy, but, oh, easy does it. Knowing your trust is a must there's no other way. Lady, it's been a long time since I've seen you. Lady it's been a long time, sometimed you cross my mind. Driving though your town hoping i dont run into I see everything clear now I wss lost but now im found more time to understand be discipline and stay focused stand back and see the bigger picture ohh what a master peace you can

Have u ever felt abandoned like deep to the core.. so much so u build a wall around you so you dont fall to the floor?

Do u understand how it feels to look alive but be dead inside? To wanna be seen and heard so desperately that your screams and crys are just echos of the mind? To associate love with pain outa fear of being left out in the rain.

Do u understand the strength just to wake up everyday pretending to be fine when inside u just wanna curl up and cry. When uve had to build an exterior so fierce to protect whats left because next time u just might not survive.

To love u was the easy bit the natural soul tie was built on that, loving u has never been the problem its all the other shit the big fuck ups are the deeper shit. How can heaven and hell be the way that defines this mess and u act like u couldnt care less. Y did it take a hit back for u to understand the mess when all i wanted was a rest. A rest from my thoughts from the images imprinted in my brain to breathe to process to try and figure a way through the mess.. instead all i got was more stress pushed to the limits i couldnt think straight. Pushed to be a protector cz i couldnt lose again i barely survived i couldnt let u take her from me. All i ever wanted was u to notice me the power the impact the struggle u pushed on me.

I was not the perfect person i made mistakes so way more servere than others. I shut down instead of opening up because i learnt the min u find a weakness u tap into that so i had to