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I pack my life in a duffel bag,

Fold my fear with my clothes

Mama’s trying not to cry,

Dad says, “Be brave, you know”

The house feels louder than it ever did before

Every goodbye echoes off the door

I’ve always wanted more than this small-town sky

But wanting it don’t make the leaving easy tonight

I’m scared to wear the uniform

Scared of who I’ll be

Scared I’ll miss the sound of home

When the nights get hard on me

I’m scared to chase a future

That costs me everything I know

I’m scared to join the military

‘Cause it means I have to go

There’s a picture on the fridge

From when I was ten years old

Dreaming big with scraped-up knees

Back when brave was just pretend

Now courage feels like shaking hands

And loving things you can’t hold

They say this fear means something

That it proves my heart is true

‘Cause only something worth keeping

Hurts this much to lose

I’m scared to wear the uniform

Scared of standing tall

Scared I won’t be there at home

If they need me when I’m gone

I’m scared I’ll miss the laughter

And the way my name sounds here

I’m scared to join the military

But I’m more scared of staying still in fear

If love could keep me rooted

I’d never leave this ground

But love’s the reason I’m walking

Even with my knees shaking now

So hold me tight just one more time

Say you’re proud, say you’ll be okay

I’ll carry you in every step

Every mile away

Yeah, I’m scared to wear the uniform

But I’m learning how to be brave

I’ll take your voices with me

Every night, every place

I’m scared, but I’m choosing courage

Even when my heart feels torn

I’m scared to join the military

But I’m stronger than I was before

So when the bus pulls out tomorrow

And the house goes quiet again

Just know every step I’m taking

Is me coming back to you in the end