Breaking Down

(Verse 1)
I’m sitting here just staring at the wall
Waiting for the ceiling to finally fall.
My neck is tight, my back is starting to give
This isn’t how I really wanted to live.
I took on everyone’s problems like they were mine
Telling everybody that I’m doing fine.
But the truth is I’m shaking under the weight
Of showing up early and staying out late.
(Chorus)
It’s too much pressure, it’s too much load
I’m breaking down on the side of the road.
My shoulders are heavy, my head’s full of guilt
For the mess I made and the life I built.
I just want to drop it and walk away
But I know I’ll be carrying it again tomorrow anyway.
(Verse 2)
I think about the people I let down
The way I acted when I was the talk of the town.
I said some things that I can’t take back
Now my chest feels tight like a heart attack.
I’m sorry for the calls that I didn't return
And all the bridges that I had to burn.
I’m trying to fix it, I’m trying to be good
But I’m not doing the things that I know I should.
(Verse 3)
Yeah, I’m hunching, I’m losing my focus
I’m carrying demons and nobody noticed
I’m "Mr. Reliable," "Mr. Dependable"
But inside I’m feeling so small and expendable.
Stomach in knots and my vision is blurry
Living my life in a permanent hurry.
The guilt is a debt that I pay every night
I’m losing the sleep and I’m losing the fight.
They look at my face and they think that I’m winning
But I’m at the end while they’re at the beginning.
My traps are like iron, my spine is a spring
I’m tired of being the king of this thing.
I’m drowning in "sorry," I’m drowning in "please"
Just waiting for someone to bring me to my knees.
(Breakdown)
Is there a point where I just say "no"?
Is there a place where the heavy things go?
I’m tired of being the one who stays strong
When everything I touch keeps going wrong.
(Chorus)
It’s too much pressure, it’s too much load
I’m breaking down on the side of the road.
My shoulders are heavy, my head’s full of guilt
For the mess I made and the life I built.
I just want to drop it and walk away
But I know I’ll be carrying it again tomorrow anyway.
(Outro)
My back hurts.
My head aches.
I’m done for today.
Just let it be

Post hardcore, Metalcore, male, regret, anxiety, tired, heavy pressure