The cost

Hmmmmm

You're clearly lying

Am I wrong for trying?

Am I wrong for having hope

Really, I’m just trying to cope

(leaving you with a note)

They are telling me to leave it

To not read the book again

And I hear them

Still, I don’t want this to be done

I don’t want to be on the run

I want to face it

Taking my problems head on

(I want to face it)

(Taking my problems head-on)

Maybe I’m stuck. Maybe I’m lost

But I won’t forget what it cost…….

I’m holding on to something real

Even if it’s just the way I feel

You say move on, I say not yet

There’s more to learn, no regrets

I wasn’t wrong for trying

Not for hoping, not for fighting

I’m still here, I’m still growing

And the light in me is showing

Don’t want to make a fool out of myself

But it seems you’re playing a game

Giving me all the blame

I'm lying to my face

You’re a waste of space

I’m rebuilding myself

Why won’t you go leave me alone

You come back, giving me hope

But I know how this go’s

Telling me I must mature

But really, I need a cure

Need to open my eyes

See through your lies

At least I know now the cost

It's this feeling of being lost……

I’m holding on to something real

Even if it’s just the way I feel

You say move on, I say not yet

There’s more to learn, no regrets

I wasn’t wrong for trying

Not for hoping, not for fighting

I’m still here, I’m still growing

And the light in me is showing

Your name holds no more meaning

This is me leaving

Done with feeling

Everything deep within……

T.S