Big percentage, might not recognize me through
The smoke and the tinted windows, I'm still in business
So every time niggas tryna say I changed, I don't get offended
They weren't even with me when I was gettin' mail from a cell
Knowin' sentences couldn't change a sentence
I aged with visits when I ain't write back, put 'em lines into rap
Got famous with it, now they payin' attention
Grew up in a struggle, I ain't really know much
Except I prolly ain't wanna end up in the same conditions
All my niggas diamonds and most did time on 'em chains
You could say that I hang with pendants
And I don't wanna network
Niggas workin' for a blue-check on the 'net tryna claim official
Between me and you, it's a major difference
I wasn't ever in this for no recognition
I'm just making up for a lifetime of losses
Heart wanted to help but my soul wanted vengeance
I just wanna turn the whole roster into bosses
Whatever it costs us, you know I'ma spend it
This is for the nights I was turnin' and tossin'
For anybody that crossed me, I hate 'em like Chris
I'ma let them watch me but no they can't sit
Only got stand-up guys in attendance, uh
Stand in the fire when I'm in it
I done hurt many of they pride and feelings
I'll let the whole world paint me a villain
Long as they know I ain't never been pretending
Long as they know I ain't never paint an image
I've been getting more each time I'm giving
Long as they know when I die, can't nothing come with me
I been lookin' to find a bigger picture
Still envision when I was chillin' with ya
I know I said I'll go my own way
But it's been months and I still don't feel a difference
Tried to focus on everyday distractions
Tried to fuck with some of the most attractive
All these alternatives just got me trippin'
At the end of the night I'm reminiscing
I'll give you any and everything that you please
Ain't that what love is, unassociated with greed
I put my heart in this shit, I hope that you see
Cause it was simpler to stay than it was to leave
But that was for the better, that was for me
And I been doin' better, that's guaranteed
And even though I been focused on what I need
Honestly, I gotta tell you
Thoughts of trying to fix the situation
Thoughts of stayin' in place and being patient
I know time is supposed to heal everything
But staying optimistic gets complicated
Cause I don't think I want nobody if it ain't you
To go console another body, I just can't do
I been through pain and came up out it with the same shoes
Hard to fall back when I feel you someone I can't lose
I can't move, crazy I can't choose
Act like I'm good when you see me, really that ain't true
Tellin' myself that I'm done but knowin' I ain't through
Saying it's bound to get better, something I can't prove
And I done see your true colors multiple times
Yeah I can see through your bullshit, read through the lines
And even though I can see I'd rather be blind
Cause deep inside
