Why Me, Lord?

[Verse 1]
Woke up in the jungle
Can’t wash out the sound
Rotors in my ribcage
Red rain on the ground
Made it home walking
Still half in that war
Thought I’d buried those ghosts
When you came through my door
[Chorus]
Why me
Lord
What did I do?
Every time I stand
You cut me in two
You took every brother
Now you’ve taken my heart
Why me
Lord
Why tear me apart?
If you’re picking favorites
You’re doing it wrong
Why me
Lord?
Why me so long?
[Verse 2]
Paper on the counter
Coffee going cold
Doctor on the phone line
Saying words like “too late” and “go”
One minute we’re laughing
Next minute she’s gone
Just when the guns in my head
Had finally gone quiet
[Chorus]
Why me
Lord
What did I do?
Every time I stand
You cut me in two
You took every brother
Now you’ve taken my heart
Why me
Lord
Why tear me apart?
If you’re picking favorites
You’re doing it wrong
Why me
Lord?
Why me so long?
[Bridge]
I’ve fought every demon
Face down in the dirt (yeah)
I’ve carried your children
Through my own hurt
If there’s some reason
You keep drawing my name
Come sit at this table
And say it plain
[Chorus]
Why me
Lord
What did I do?
Every time I stand
You cut me in two
You took every brother
Now you’ve taken my heart
Why me
Lord
Why tear me apart?
If you’re picking favorites
Just leave me alone
Why me
Lord?
Or send me on home

Gravelly heartland rock ballad with male vocals; verses over fingerpicked acoustic and sparse organ, brushed snare creeping in. Chorus swells with slide guitar, low choir pads, and a steady, worn-in backbeat. Subtle steel and harmonica fills paint the edges, final chorus pulls back to near-whisper then blooms on the last line.