carried the weight

Verse 1

I was taught how to vanish politely

How to shrink till I fit in the room

How to carry the weight of a lifetime

And call it “growing up too soon”

I learned that love is a sentence

You serve till you sound rehabilized

So I swallowed my name like a secret

And survived on the lie

Pre c

They said “time heals the damage”

But time just taught me restraint

I didn’t heal

I adapted to pain

Chorus

I am not strong, I am stubborn

There’s a difference they miss

I didn’t rise from the ashes

I just refused to exist like this

If I sound like I’m fearless

It’s only because I’m past fear

You don’t stare into nothing this long

Without learning to live here

Verse

I’ve memorized every exit

Every way I could disappear

I’ve negotiated with endings

That felt dangerously sincere

I’ve worn hope like a costume

That never quite fit my skin

I don’t dream of becoming someone

I dream of staying in

Pre c

I don’t trust peace when it whispers

I trust the ache when it stays

At least pain never promises

Then walks away

Chorus

I am not strong, I am stubborn

There’s a difference they miss

I didn’t rise from the ashes

I just refused to exist like this

If I sound like I’m fearless

It’s only because I’m past fear

You don’t stare into nothing this long

Without learning to live here

Bridge

If I stop moving, I sink

If I soften, I split

There’s a part of me tired of breathing

And a part that won’t quit

I don’t call this survival

I call it a debt I pay

Every morning I wake up

And choose to stay

Final Chorus

I am not strong, I am stubborn

I am not healed, I endure

I don’t believe I was meant for this world

But I’m still here, still sure

If I disappear one day

Know I didn’t lose the fight

I just carried the weight of being alive

For an unforgiving amount of nights

Outro

I didn’t win

I didn’t fall

I just stayed

That’s all