Doorway

I’ve been sleeping with the lights on

Just to chase away the dark

But every corner of this bedroom

Still remembers where you are

And I’m holding every moment

Like it’s slipping through my hands

Asking God if you still think of me

Or if you’ve already found your plan

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And I’m tired

Of pretending I’m not breaking

When the silence

Is the only thing that’s staying

And your words still echo softly in my ribs…

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You walked away but your shadow’s in the doorway,

The one that said “I’m sorry” when you couldn’t let me in

And I hate the way I miss you but I’d let you do it all again

’Cause goodbye felt like an answer when I never asked the end

No, I never asked the end

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You’ve been hiding in a new girl

Like a bandage on a wound

But I wonder if she sees the parts

You never let me see of you

And I know we both were fragile

In the ways we tried to love

But you gave me every sunrise

Now I’m scared of waking up

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And I’m trying

To forgive the way you left me

But I’m dying

To believe you never meant it

And your hoodie’s still tangled in my bed, like you never really left…

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You walked away but your shadow’s in the doorway,

The one that said “I’m sorry” when you couldn’t find the words to give

And I hate the way I’m haunted by the nights we almost lived

Guess goodbye felt like a promise that you thought you had to give

But I never wanted this

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Tell me, baby, do you sleep at night

Or does the guilt still keep you company?

Did you love me just a little bit

Or was that only ever true for me?

I’m trying not to hate you now

But God, you made it easy…

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I loved you harder than I should

You ran faster than you could

But I’d still hold you if you came

Even if it hurt the same

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You walked away but your shadow’s in the doorway,

Your apology still bleeding from the place your silence lived

And I hate that I still love you but I won’t pretend I don’t

Maybe someday, you’ll remember all the things you couldn’t hold

And maybe you’ll come home.

Maybe you’ll come home.