I’ve been walking with the pressure that I’ve never learned to name
Like a storm that never breaks but still is humming in my veins
People ask me if I’m fine I give the answer they expect
The version that looks steady, never cracks or bends
But the truth is in the moments when the noise becomes a crime
When I hold my breath and vanish just to buy a little time
One wrong step and I can slip drop right through floor again
And nobody would notice
Cause I keep it all within
I′m tired of holding steady
When the ground keeps giving way
I’m done hiding from the parts of me
I never let you see
Not still fighting on the parts I used to be
If I’m breaking, let it break
I’m finally learning how to breathe
I’m not dying. This is me.
This is what it means to be free
Some nights at the glass keeps breaking like this, trying to stay
Try hard to pull me backwards like I was back in those days
But I’m not opening that door not again not anyway
I’ve been drowning in the quiet that I used to never said
I’ve been patching up the parts I couldn’t face
Trying to be the cover-up but sinking in the mix
I’m not searching for forgiveness. I’m just trying to feel a spark.
Something real to anchor when the world gets fucking dark
If I fall apart tonight
At least it’s honest when it breaks
I’m done hiding from the parts of me
I never let you see
Not still fighting on the parts I used to be
If I’m breaking, let it break
I’m finally learning how to breathe
I’m not dying. This is me.
This is what it means to be free
Take away every piece I carry just to stay upright
Take the doubt, every thought that kept me up at night
If I shake, let it be the start of something right
I'm not running from the cracks that brought me back to life
I′m done hiding from the parts of me I never let you see
Not still fighting just to prove I'm who I used to be
If I'm braking, let it break
I′m finally learning how to breathe
I′m not dying, this is me
And this is what it means to be free