This is me

I’ve been walking with the pressure that I’ve never learned to name

Like a storm that never breaks but still is humming in my veins

People ask me if I’m fine I give the answer they expect

The version that looks steady, never cracks or bends

But the truth is in the moments when the noise becomes a crime

When I hold my breath and vanish just to buy a little time

One wrong step and I can slip drop right through floor again

And nobody would notice

Cause I keep it all within

I′m tired of holding steady

When the ground keeps giving way

I’m done hiding from the parts of me

I never let you see

Not still fighting on the parts I used to be

If I’m breaking, let it break

I’m finally learning how to breathe

I’m not dying. This is me.

This is what it means to be free

Some nights at the glass keeps breaking like this, trying to stay

Try hard to pull me backwards like I was back in those days

But I’m not opening that door not again not anyway

I’ve been drowning in the quiet that I used to never said

I’ve been patching up the parts I couldn’t face

Trying to be the cover-up but sinking in the mix

I’m not searching for forgiveness. I’m just trying to feel a spark.

Something real to anchor when the world gets fucking dark

If I fall apart tonight

At least it’s honest when it breaks

I’m done hiding from the parts of me

I never let you see

Not still fighting on the parts I used to be

If I’m breaking, let it break

I’m finally learning how to breathe

I’m not dying. This is me.

This is what it means to be free

Take away every piece I carry just to stay upright

Take the doubt, every thought that kept me up at night

If I shake, let it be the start of something right

I'm not running from the cracks that brought me back to life

I′m done hiding from the parts of me I never let you see

Not still fighting just to prove I'm who I used to be

If I'm braking, let it break

I′m finally learning how to breathe

I′m not dying, this is me

And this is what it means to be free