Feeling express

Can't deal , trying so hard not to break down , trying hard to keep it all together ,Lord you got to help me Lord this time of year Lord I need you to help me understand

Lord help me understand this time of Year where everyone is happy everyone Jolly Lord I can't be no I can't be , You see my dad passed November 1984 He was only 54 ,My mother pass away Christmas eve 2014 Just got a call the other day my nephew passed

Away two year ago my sister passed away help me help me understand

Everyone saying Happy Thanksgiving, Merry Christmas happy new year , all I can say Lord you got to help , understand , all I can say is tell my family God be with you

Don't get me wrong, but I just don't understand I lifted up my Cried into the Lord Please help me understand ,yes I know they are in your hands But this time of year I get Lost in my emotions missing all my Love ones trying to figure why they left so close together almost Like one after another and all doing the Holiday season ,So as I end my song I say happy Thanksgiving,Merry Christmas Happy new Lord I just don't understand Help Lord understand Help Me Lord Help Me