She hates me

I don't like what I've become ,don't even remember where I came from ,I don't recognize my refection in the mirror,I don't even care if I'm here. My struggles ate real to me ,my girl tells everyone jokes about me,I trying to look past all of it,,I need a shovel for all the bullshit..I say leave me and I'll go nicely she say na I'd rather be grime E, I ask her to please relieve me of my troubles,,she say na I rather your troubles double. I try to be pleasant at our meetings she say um ya uh fuk your feelings,, I say I'm sorry about my defects ,she say it's OK you I don't respect,why In the he'll did you bring me here,She walks away without shedding a tear.i was promised all but got dissed if I was dead tommarrow she would not miss..I say you don't want me I'm to much work she say I'll fix you instead treated me like dirt..I say I just want me and you to be alone ,,She say huh as she looks back down to her phone ,,I love this person greatly ,,this person oh this person only hates me..oooooh sheeeeee ooooh sheeee she fukn hates me .oooooh oh ooooh she fukn hates me.