[Verse 1]
Used to sleep in my hoodie
Phone screen on the floor, still lit
Reading all the things you wrote me
Back when you said I was it
Now it's “seen” and silence
Typing… gone, you erase
I rehearse what I’d say on a call
But I never press play on my shame
My friends say "you gotta move on"
I say "yeah", then I scroll till three
Staring into everybody’s highlight reel
Just looking for a version of me (that ain't broken)
[Chorus]
I'm still leaving the porch light on
Like you might come home by mistake
Cup rings on the table from the nights
That I drank through the ache
Yeah, I hid every mirror in this place
‘Cause I hate what I see when it’s dark
If you’re looking for the reason that you left
You can find it beating out in my chest
I’m the problem
I’m the problem you parked in your heart
[Verse 2]
I talk big, but I fold quick
Every plan that I make, I quit
I keep building you a version of me
Then I smash it when I get scared of it
You said, "you don't let nobody in"
I laughed, said, "who would wanna stay?"
Truth is, I keep doors half open
Just enough for someone else to walk away (every time)
My mom says she’s worried ‘bout me
I say, "I’m fine", change the tone
But the fridge got pills on the magnet list
Right next to “please pick up the phone”
[Chorus]
I'm still leaving the porch light on
Like you might come home by mistake
Cup rings on the table from the nights
That I drank through the ache
Yeah, I hid every mirror in this place
‘Cause I hate what I see when it’s dark
If you’re looking for the reason that you left
You can find it beating out in my chest
I’m the problem
I’m the problem you parked in your heart
[Bridge]
If hurting you was the test
Guess I passed it, flying colors
If wasting love was a sport
I’d be framed on the wall with the others
I keep saying I’ll change, I swear
Write it down, then I cross it out scared
‘Cause if I turn into someone you’d choose
What do I do if you still don’t care? (yeah)
[Chorus]
I'm still leaving the porch light on
Like you might come home by mistake
Cup rings on the table from the nights
That I drank through the ache
Yeah, I hid every mirror in this place
‘Cause I hate what I see when it’s dark
If you’re looking for the reason that you left
You can find it beating out in my chest
I’m the problem
Yeah, I’m the problem you parked in your heart