Golden

[Verse 1]
Golden heart
They told me that’s what I got
But it feel like a cinderblock
on a chain in a parking lot
Every step
leaves a groove in the floor I walk
Smile on my face for the crowd
but my chest does all the hard talk
Say I’m blessed
I’m just stressed  while I got these voices in my head 
Phone full of people I know but I never text 
Still feel solo when the party close
Heavy thoughts
drag my ribs through the dirt and dust
Everyone say “you’re so kind” and 
I don’t know who to trust
[Chorus]
Golden heart, but it’s heavy when it hits my chest 
Looks fine from afar,  but up close it’s chipping 
Can’t float with this weight always dragging me down down yeah 
Golden heart?
I just know that it’s dragging me now
Golden heart, but it’s rust on the edges, too
Shine bright for the world, turns me black and blue
They praise what they see, they don’t hear the sound
Golden heart?
All I feel is it’s dragging me down and I can’t hardly stand anymore 
[Verse 2]
They love the light
til the light start burning them back
I break off pieces of me
til I’m bones in an overshared act
“Stay soft” they tell me but 
that’s the script that they hand to me
But soft don’t survive on a block
where they gamble with sanity
I’ve been kind
till my kindness became this cage that trapped me 
Smile like a saint in the pic
then I rage on a private page
If I cared less
maybe I could float like them
But I care too deep, too wide
and it pull me right off that rim
[Chorus]
Golden heart, but it’s heavy when it hits my ribs
Look fine from afar, up close it’s chipped
Can’t float with this weight always pulling me down
Golden heart?
I just know that it’s dragging me now
Golden heart, but it’s rust on the edges, too
Shine bright for the world, turn me black and blue
They praise what they can see, they don’t hear the pain in my words they keep on telling me that I got this and keep on moving 
Golden heart?
All It feels like it’s dragging me down down down yeah it feels like I’m sinking down in quicksand 
[Violin Solo]

[Outro]

rap, Minor-key trap-leaning hip hop, moody and hazy. Sparse piano and distant pads over deep, slow knock. Vocal sits upf