Just a thought
Sometimes becomes reality,
even when it is scary.
Scarlet blades,
life ebbing and flowing,
slowly leaving.
Desperate souls hidden behind plastic smiles
lips barely shy of the eyes
that are dead inside
And all the pain building up like an incoming tide
tearing at my heart
Feel so alone
deep into the unknown
Deep into the unknown
You are my reality
The truth, the life, and the way
My soul is desperate
But you are my peace
You are here with me
The pain builds up inside
But it will not hold me back
Because you are a God
That breaks all chains
Your life flows in my veins
I told my friends that I’ll be there for them
I told them that as long as I’m alive
they won’t be alone
They told me I should expect the same
but I find it hard to believe
and I get no relief
If I’m supposed to trust
if I’m supposed to tell the truth
honestly—how would I be viewed
They tell me that I can talk to them
I said, I believe what you say
but do I really because my thoughts seem to sway
why is it that I still end up suppressing every feeling that I feel
Pushing down the tears
Picking the emotions from the inside
lungs closing up, choking on the air that I can’t breathe.
And I can’t breathe
You are my reality
The truth, the life, and the way
My soul is desperate
But you are my peace
You are here with me
The pain builds up inside
But it will not hold me back
Because you are a God
That breaks all chains
Your life flows in my veins
And I hear your voice in the back of my mind
I feel you fighting for my soul
Thoughts impulsively invading me as a whole
Never quiet, always screaming
so chaotic
And your quiet no
breaking the forces that were demonic
You are my reality
The truth, the life, and the way
My soul is desperate
But you are my peace
You are here with me
The pain builds up inside
But it will not hold me back
Because you are a God
That breaks all chains
Your life flows in my veins
Your harmony makes all the difference
It isn’t a battle against flesh and blood any longer
You will win this war
no matter how many battles it takes
I won’t let this stop me
not fear, not stress, not anxiety
’cause you said I was made in your image
You said that you live inside me
So I won’t let this stop me
I won’t let this stop me
Cause it’s not who I was meant to be
I am your masterpiece
no matter how broken I feel
No matter how scared I am
And I can’t ever earn your love
I always want to give it up
But your love, my life, it is a gift
So I place it in your hands
the God who understands.
You fight for me
and I will never earn it
And I can say that you have so many better things to do
You have so many people more worth saving than me
And all I hear
in response is But I can be everywhere all at once
I have no excuse not to say thank you
You still choose me, even when I wouldn’t choose myself
even when I put myself on the shelf
You were here for me,
You are with me now,
Oh, you are with me now.
So I won’t be defined by my scars,
If you take pleasure in breaki
TJ____
