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I say I’m fine so you believe it I laugh so you stop asking I joke so you don’t worry I wake up every day but not because I want to the sun rises so I get up the world moves so I follow but I am not living just existing just passing time don’t want to die but don’t misunderstand I’m not planning to go I just wouldn’t fight to stay I’m just tired.

I don’t know what to do too get me back to you I’ve got nothing left to lose I’m sadness tears and blues. All bridges have been crossed I guess our love is lost.Something I get so sad that it hard to breathe so tell me how do you expect me to talk about my demons when they’re sitting on my lungs.

Tears on my pillow I can’t count how many I’ve cried I feel so awfully hollow almost like if me that died. How long will I feel so empty will this heartache ever end how long will I have to write until we mee in heaven mama. I. Wish I could live over again each happy moments we were given for though the pain may linger our love would never die it will always come to mind each time that I cry out of too much pain for you.Because I don’t know what’s real anymore you may say you love me. But do you really everyone has something they change about me so how do you know you don’t have something to me too. I’m not the prettiest person and I know better so how am I positive they won’t leave me for better I’m used to be left and discarded like I’m nothing I know I’m on the bottom at everyone priority list I never get picked first so how do I know they really mean when they say “ I love you " because no one ever means it anymore