Half loved

Verse 1

I still look for you in every crowd

Still wait for your voice to call me out

I learned how to be quiet in your room

So I wouldn’t give you a reason to leave too soon

I memorized the shape of your silence

The way your eyes always slide past mine

Like I’m just a ghost in the doorway

Trying to prove I’m alive

I left my heart on your doorstep

Just hoping you’d let me in

And every time you turned away

I picked it up again

Pre-Chorus

I don’t need you to be perfect

I just need you to stay

To tell me I’m not broken

In the way that I was made

Chorus

Do you hate me, or do you just not care?

Do you see me standing, or am I not there?

I love you even when it hurts this way

But loving you feels like begging you to stay

So tell me, father, am I hard to love?

Or was I just never enough?

Verse 2

I kept all your promises folded in my chest

Like notes you never meant to send

I tried to be everything you wanted

But I was never what you chose in the end

I smile when you walk in the room

Like maybe today will be the day

You’ll look at me like I’m your child

Not just someone in the way

Pre-Chorus 2

Do you love me or just say it sometimes?

Like it’s easier than crossing the line

You pull me close, then you push me away

And I’m left in the middle, not knowing what to say

Chorus

Do you hate me, or do you just not see?

All the parts of you that are living in me

I love you even when I’m breaking apart

Trying to earn a place in your heart

So tell me, father, why am I still here

If loving you always ends in tears?

Bridge

I don’t need you to save me

I just need you to try

To look at me once

And not look away this time

I’ve been your child

Since my very first breath

Why does your love

Feel closer to death?

I still love you even when I’m unsure

If your love is something I can trust anymore

Final Chorus

Do you hate me, or are you just afraid

To love something that might need you to stay?

I love you even when it’s killing me

But loving you feels like begging I'm begging to breathe

So tell me, father, before I fall apart

Was I ever welcome in your heart?