Verse 1
I still look for you in every crowd
Still wait for your voice to call me out
I learned how to be quiet in your room
So I wouldn’t give you a reason to leave too soon
I memorized the shape of your silence
The way your eyes always slide past mine
Like I’m just a ghost in the doorway
Trying to prove I’m alive
I left my heart on your doorstep
Just hoping you’d let me in
And every time you turned away
I picked it up again
Pre-Chorus
I don’t need you to be perfect
I just need you to stay
To tell me I’m not broken
In the way that I was made
Chorus
Do you hate me, or do you just not care?
Do you see me standing, or am I not there?
I love you even when it hurts this way
But loving you feels like begging you to stay
So tell me, father, am I hard to love?
Or was I just never enough?
Verse 2
I kept all your promises folded in my chest
Like notes you never meant to send
I tried to be everything you wanted
But I was never what you chose in the end
I smile when you walk in the room
Like maybe today will be the day
You’ll look at me like I’m your child
Not just someone in the way
Pre-Chorus 2
Do you love me or just say it sometimes?
Like it’s easier than crossing the line
You pull me close, then you push me away
And I’m left in the middle, not knowing what to say
Chorus
Do you hate me, or do you just not see?
All the parts of you that are living in me
I love you even when I’m breaking apart
Trying to earn a place in your heart
So tell me, father, why am I still here
If loving you always ends in tears?
Bridge
I don’t need you to save me
I just need you to try
To look at me once
And not look away this time
I’ve been your child
Since my very first breath
Why does your love
Feel closer to death?
I still love you even when I’m unsure
If your love is something I can trust anymore
Final Chorus
Do you hate me, or are you just afraid
To love something that might need you to stay?
I love you even when it’s killing me
But loving you feels like begging I'm begging to breathe
So tell me, father, before I fall apart
Was I ever welcome in your heart?