I can’t

I’ve got the weight of the world on my chest

And it’s crushing my breath.

My world is turning black and I can’t feel my legs any more.

Clenching my fists - I can’t see reality.

My body hits the floor.

Gasping for air, I spiral more and more.

Please hold me - don’t touch me.

Stay with me, but go away.

Tell me everything will be ok.

I can’t do this on my own.

Tell me everything will be ok.

Everything will be ok.

I greet the morning with my heart pounding.

Every noise is compounding.

Make it stop, make it stop, make it stop!

I can’t block out my responsibilities,

But I can’t take on this day.

The more I run the faster I fall.

My mind says, ‘To hell with it all.”

Please say something - don’t talk to me.

I don’t want you to see me like this,

but please don’t leave me.

I need something to hold me and ground me to reality.

Just tell me everything will be ok.

Everything will be ok.

I clench my jaws until my teeth start to crack.

My thoughts are numb and now I can’t turn back.

I could feel it coming on and you pushed me over the edge.

Every moment I’m alive Im standing on the edge

Of another break down.

All I can do is fall down

My thoughts are spinning all around

My legs can’t get me off the ground

The voice inside my head just says

“I can’t”