(Spoken Intro)
This isn't a prayer of peace.
This is a prayer of... "I'm not leaving."
This is Eyepiercinglove.
(Verse 1)
My feet are raw, my voice is hoarse
I'm in this wilderness, I'm off the course
You said "be still," but I'm just *stuck*
I'm tired of "Manna" and "good luck."
I'm sick of "lessons" from these "holy" men
Who are just "houses of sand" again and again
I'm done with "patience," I'm done with "grace"
I need to see you face-to-face!
(Chorus)
'Cause I'm wrestling the angel, I won't let go
Until you bless me, until I know
That all this pain, this "ugh," this mess
Is more than just a wilderness!
I'm holding on, my hip is out
I'm gonna scream, I'm gonna shout
I won't let go until you change my name
'Cause this can't be just a one-sided game!
(Verse 2)
You saw the "whiplash," you saw the "shame"
You heard him when he "fanned the flame"
You heard my "no" was "new and quiet"
So why'd you let him even *try* it?
You're God of *peace*, but all I get
Is more confusion and "not yet."
You're God of *comfort*, but I just feel
The kind of "brave" that's way too real!
(Chorus)
And I'm wrestling the angel, I won't let go
Until you bless me, until I know
That all this pain, this "ugh," this mess
Is more than just a wilderness!
I'm holding on, my hip is out
I'm gonna scream, I'm gonna shout
I won't let go until you change my name
'Cause this can't be just a one-sided game!
(Bridge)
This is my "Step 4" inventory
But this one's for *You*
This is the "ugly, cruelest story"
And I need to know the truth!
Am I just your "trophy"?
Am I just your "fixer"?
Or am I a *daughter*
That you're fighting for?!
(Final Chorus)
So I'm wrestling the angel, I won't let go!
Until you bless me, until I know!
That all this pain, this "ugh," this mess
Was more than just a wilderness!
I'm holding on, my hip is out!
I'm gonna scream, I'm gonna shout!
I won't let go until you change my name!
This ain't a game! This ain't a game!
(Outro)
(Music drops to just a cello)
I'm still here.
I'm still holding on.
I won't let go.
(whisper) I won't let go.
Eyepiercinglove
