[Intro]
Lost my mom at three
Whole world cut deep
Swear that pain raised me
But it ain't break me (nah)
[Verse 1]
I was three in the front row
White room, big coats, eyes low
They said "she gone," I ain't know
Just remember that door close slow
Then bags in a hallway, new house, new rules
New hands that hit hard, new voices so cruel
They said I was lucky
I felt like a punchline
Sleeping with my shoes on
Heart on a landmine
Talked down on me daily
"Boy, you won't be nothing"
So I learned to raise myself
'Cause the grown folk bluffing
I was feeding my fear
Out the bottle and the bag
Trying not to feel
So I ran with the trash
Every bruise, every night that I bled in the sink
Had me staring at the mirror like "you better not blink"
[Chorus]
From hurt to hallelujah
From blood on my hands to prayer on my lips
I was lost in the dark, but He knew ya
Pulled me out that pit, I ain't going back in
I was numb, I was high, I was breaking
Trying to die just to stop all the shaking
Then God took my pain, started changing me
Now the curse on my name turning into a blessing, see
[Verse 2]
Used to choke on the smoke just to sleep at night
Pop pills, pop off if you look at me twice
Thought the devil was a friend
He was feeding me lies
"Boy, you broken by design
Might as well get high"
Then one day in the bathroom
Eyes red, floor cold, heart done
I said "God, if You real
I can't carry this gun"
I can't bury my anger
In another small grave
I can't drink my way out
Of the boy You made
Felt a hand on my shoulder
Ain't no person in sight
Felt my lungs fill slow
For the first time in life
Phone rang, big bro on the line like "stay"
Get up out that house
Come and crash at my place
Step by step, yeah, I dropped them habits
Shook those demons off, had to break that pattern
Now I'm walking with the weight of a king, not chains
Still scarred, but I'm free
Still hurt, but I'm changed (yeah)
[Chorus]
From hurt to hallelujah
From blood on my hands to prayer on my lips
I was lost in the dark, but He knew ya
Pulled me out that pit, I ain't going back in
I was numb, I was high, I was breaking
Trying to die just to stop all the shaking
Then God took my pain, started changing me
Now the curse on my name turning into a blessing, see
[Bridge]
This for that little boy
Crying in a locked room
This for that foster kid
Thinking that it's all doomed
I'm proof that the story can flip, lil man
Keep breath in your chest
Keep faith in your hands (yeah, yeah)
[Chorus]
From hurt to hallelujah
From blood on my hands to prayer on my lips
I was lost in the dark, but He knew ya
Pulled me out that pit, I ain't going back in
I was numb, I was high, I was breaking
Trying to die just to stop all the shaking
Then God took my pain, started changing me
Now the curse on my name turning into a blessing, see (hallelujah)