The Outtake

Started a diet described by myself
Eating once a day, didn’t go well
Body shaming a norm, an everyday song
Like they did with my self-esteem
Cutting it seemed the way to dream

No more sugar, no more birthday cake
Every step feeling like a earthquake
Stood by others but chose to forsake
Is my body an outtake?
It feels like a heartbreak

Keep hearing “your body is fine” 
Your empty praise don’t sound legit
If I asked you to take it, you’d decline
So was your compliment counterfeit ?

I’m not ready to go out
Need time to know my next whereabout
Have to prepare mentally and physically 
But people wanna eat and be done with it
Like I’m the ice-cream they gonna lick and bail like I once did

I’m lucky if someone looks my way now
Checking who’s next to me, it’s a know-how

Don’t want to be ungrateful for my body
When others have it tougher, I’m so sorry
And I could try, but can’t deny
Selfish inside, wanting to die
Your compliment’s just a line
Eager to fight me

No more sugar, no more birthday cake
Definitely a heartbreak
Ready to be the outtake 
The scene they forsake

male, an aggressive alternative pop track with heavy beats, dark synths, and raw, angry emotional delivery