Just see

Do you not see how broken I've become, Do you not see how close to the edge I am how many steps, just one. I try not to be a bother, I tried to be invisible, but you wouldn't me, well maybe you should. You should have let me go a long time ago, should have let me stay down below. I know the way things are in my life are because of me, but I dont need you to make me see it believe me i see. I pay for the crimes I've commited in this life, when are you gonna own up to the fact you tend to turn the knife. All i can say as my time here comes closer to the end, I hope you see more has been damaged and sacrificed that that time can mend. I wish things were different and I didn't feel like like I do, I wish things werent so messed up and I didn't act dumb to you. You expect me to change for you but you dont for me, You use my weaknesses against me, but its the only way I can be. You bleed on me when i didn't cut you, you want something you know we can't do. you need to see friends is all we can be, how long will it take for you to see. to see I am not ok and In this world I don't want to stay. Im here until I can't do it anymore, but know that day is closer than the day before. Don't take for granted the days I am still here, cuz the day you turn around and expect to see me but I am gone is drawing near. I will go in silence, I will go without fear, so dont take too long to just stop and actually hear.