46 & 2

Join in my—

Join in, my child, and listen, digging through my numb shadow

My shadow's shedding skin

I've been picking scabs again

I'm down, digging through

My old muscles, looking for a clue

I've been crawling on my belly

Clearing out what could've been

I've been wallowing in my own confused

And insecure delusions

For a piece to cross me over

Or a word to guide me in

I wanna feel the changes coming down

I wanna know what I've been hiding

In my shadow

My shadow

Change is coming through

My shadow

My shadow

Shedding skin

I've been picking

My scabs again

Join in my—

Join in my child

My shadow's

Closer to meaning

I've been crawling on my belly

Clearing out what could've been

I've been wallowing in my own chaotic

Insecure delusions

I wanna feel the change consume me

Feel the outside turning in

I wanna feel the metamorphosis and

Cleansing I've endured in

My shadow

My shadow

Change is coming

Now is my time

Listen to my muscle memory

Contemplate what I've been clinging to

Forty-six and two ahead of me

I choose to live and to grow

Take and give and to move

Learn and love and to cry

Kill and die and to be

Paranoid and to lie

Hate and fear and to do

What it takes to move through

I choose to live and to lie

Kill and give and to die

Learn and love and to do

What it takes to step through

See my shadow changing

Stretching up and over me

Soften this old armor

Hoping I can clear the way by

Stepping through my shadow

Coming out the other side

Step into the shadow

Forty six and two are just ahead of me