[intro]
[verse]
I cant deny it any longer
The lack of feelings growing stronger
Id say Im angry or Ive been crying
But in the end Im fucking lying
[verse]
Going through motions day by day
Still got nothing of worth to say
But when they ask if Im okay
I shut it down and run away
I look for help online
doom scroll instead and waste my time
I ask for therapy
But then they stare at me
Raising fears unnecessarily
[pre-chorus]
I take my meds to simmer down
Used to like when they’d mute sound
Find I lack the words to say
That I am still far from okay
[chorus]
Even as the world goes static
My mind gets more erratic
Envy for those on my side
Love tossed away like all my pride
I want more but dont know why
I let it go let it all slip by
Feeding the stupor then lie that Im super
Im a fragile bitch ass loser
[verse]
The motions roll me day by day
They watch but dont know what to say
Something inside says Im not okay
Lack fear to run though so guess I’ll stay
Some say that Ive grown a spine
Or say I radicalized online
Send me to therapy
But theres nothing wrong with me
Assuaging their fears unnecessarily
[pre-chorus]
I take my meds to simmer down
Used to like when they’d mute sound
Find I lack the words to say
That I’m still far from okay
[chorus]
Even as the world goes static
My mind gets more erratic
Envy for those on my side
Love tossed away with all my pride
I want more but dont know why
I let it go let it all slip by
Feeding the stupor then lie that Im super
Im a fragile bitch ass loser
[bridge]
I can’t deny it any longer.
Acedia is growing stronger.
Could say I’m angry or I’ve been crying.
In the end I’m fucking lying.
[chorus]
Even as the world goes static
My mind gets more erratic
Envy for those i apathize
Love tossed away with all my pride
I want more but dont know why
I let it go let it all fly by
Feeding the stupor then lie that Im super
Im a fragile broken loser
[outro]
Xavier_Jara