Verse 1
I wake up holding onto days
Like they might finally explain
Why I keep standing in my life
Like I arrived too late
I do the motions, hit my marks
Learn how to live without a spark
Everyone says, “This is it”
But it feels like I’m pretending hard
Pre-Chorus
I keep waiting for the moment
When it clicks and feels like home
Chorus
I’m in the right place, wrong life
Everything’s close, nothing’s mine
I do what works, I do what’s safe
But it empties me every time
I swear I try, I swear I stay
But something in me drifts away
Verse 2
Sometimes hope shows up unasked
Like maybe this is where it starts
I feel my chest begin to lift
I let myself believe too fast
For a second I can see it clear
A version of me that’s not stuck here
I touch the edge of something real
Then it disappears
Pre-Chorus
My heart rises before I stop it
Like it forgets how this goes
Chorus
For a moment, I’m not trapped
For a moment, I collapse
Into dreams I almost hold
Before they turn back into smoke
I reach out, it fades from sight
Every time I think it’s right
Drop / Post-Chorus (stripped, fragile)
Not this life
Not this day
Just another almost way
Bridge (dreamy, hopeful build)
I swear there’s more than what I know
A place where I don’t feel so slow
Where time feels open, wide, and kind
And I don’t leave myself behind
I imagine breathing without fear
Choosing when I’m ready, here
No rules disguised as being grown
No life that doesn’t feel my own
Final Chorus (sad, quiet fall)
But dreams keep breaking softly
Right in front of me
Every time I think I’m close
They slip quietly
I keep hoping anyway
Even when it hurts to stay
Because giving up would mean
This is all I’ll ever be
Outro
So I wait with open hands
For a life that understands
BLACKLARK
