You said it calm, you said it kind,
You said it with tears in your eyes,
You changed your words a hundred times,
But I was hiding in my disguise.
I heard your pain as an attack,
I heard your questions as a fight,
Instead of looking at myself,
I ran and turned away the light.
(Pre-Chorus)
Every time the pressure came,
I made you the one to blame,
I held the mirror in my hands,
But I refused to see my name.
You kept thinking if you explained it better,
I would finally understand,
But I wasn’t missing what you said…
I was avoiding where I had to stand.
(Chorus)
Because maybe it was never about the words,
Maybe it was never how you tried,
Maybe I just couldn’t face the hurt
I carried deep inside.
Avoiding discomfort felt easier
Than admitting I was wrong,
You were fighting to save us both,
While I was looking for a way gone.
Now I see love can’t survive
When honesty feels like a threat,
And emotional safety was something
I never learned to give you yet.
(Verse 2)
You became smaller to keep the peace,
You watched every step you made,
While I was carrying my own fears
And making you carry my weight.
You brought me pain, I called it blame,
You asked for love, I heard control,
You were reaching for connection,
While I was protecting my own soul.
(Bridge)
You were solving for connection,
I was running from the weight,
You were begging me for repair,
I kept closing every gate.
And the hardest truth I face
After all these years gone by…
Is maybe you were never too much,
Maybe I was too afraid to try.
(Final Chorus)
So it was never about your wording,
Never about saying it right,
You could’ve explained your heart forever,
I was still hiding from the light.
Love gets tired and fragile
When one heart does all the repair,
A relationship can survive hard truths…
But not when only one person cares.
Now I know the one I was running from
Was the man I needed to become.
