The Reason I'm Real Reason

As my eyes first opened my heart grew numb as she hit that wall The blood would run.

My first look at life violence seems the way nowhere to run. It was here to stay.

Then 20 years later, the violence stopped

every man that laid hands soaked up every drop.

Her heart stopped beating an Her soul moved on

no more hands to lay because your victims gone

A glimpse of light as my life moved on then a few souls later and that light was gone.

Then a Silent ring

I missed that Call

a message come through

Little bro was gone

He went cold in that cell laying all alone

The violence won it has the throne

So I sat and stared at the message on my phone

As my heart grew dark and my mind went blank

That part of me

I’ll never get back

So I chased that silence through a bottle of jacks

Endless drugs and a mind that went blank

Then one more call

my other brother was gone.

I should of listened when you said that you were done

I remember that call

I felt your pain

but I was high bro

Im staying numb

well that what I thought

But now the drugs are done

They deepen my thoughts and worsen the pain

There is one good thought though

Knowing I don’t have to do this life again

So The bottles are empty

An I don’t no were to turn

Now the clock is ticking

But iv still have life to burn

My heart still beats but the pain is less

And my mind stays steady to be at my best

4 beautiful souls I call my own

Your reason I’m here

the reason I’m still strong

Your the real reason

I no I’m not along