Just move on

My heart is full of love, but it’s also filled with sadness. I’ve been trying to talk to you in a better fashion. But my feelings and emotions are some how clouded with madness. Does it rain or does it pour? I don’t know because i feel left out. When i try to speak up i always get shot down.. am i clown or a goofy ? Idk you tell me. Remember when u loved me so much u didn’t even have to tell me. But i guess im too emotional now. I guess im focusing on the wrong things i guess it’s time to co parent now and do my own thing. After all.. u may care but u just keep on hiding. Hey everybody look at me the clown who just keeps on trying. U claim u be at your friends house, it’s not that i don’t trust you, i want to… but ik someone else got your attention and it’s bothering me, because i want to… love you, protect you , hold you, and vent too.. smoke weed and lick you , from your head to your toes. This pain in my chest i don’t know... I love you so much i told you i wanted the family back and i feel like i just got laughed at. No sympathy no warm blood just cold.. (yeah i do) .. i get it now, your doing me how i did you.

But i apologize for being this person god got us on this path for a purpose, but i just wish that he can hurry. I promise I’ll listen more and shut up. Take this poem how you want. It took time to create this with love. And yes i will do better spending time with our son.

I love you no matter what, lmk what’s up because im feeling hella stuck.