Verse 1
I was barely grown when the orders came down
Learned how to stand when the world burned around
They told me I was chosen, told me I was right
But no one ever warned me what follows at night
Verse 2
I laid down the uniform, buried the steel
Thought distance and time would teach me to heal
But the weight of those moments still clings to my breath
Like I never quite left what I saw over there
Chorus
Now I don’t sleep easy
I don’t sleep deep
Every sound still feels like it’s calling to me
I lie awake when the room goes still
I’m not dreaming
I never will
Verse 3
I see old friends walking past me each day
Same eyes, same voices, but drifting away
We speak like strangers, careful and slow
Like we’re afraid of what we already know
Verse 4
If heaven is watching, it turned its face
When mercy was needed, it came too late
I don’t pray anymore, I don’t ask for release
I’ve made my peace with the absence of peace
Chorus
Now I don’t sleep easy
I don’t sleep long
The quiet reminds me of everything wrong
I keep the light on against my will
I’m not dreaming
I’m standing still
Bridge
I don’t need forgiveness
I don’t need a name
Just a moment where the past loosens its grip again
Final Chorus
So I rest with my eyes half open tonight
Watching shadows move under borrowed light
If tomorrow comes, I’ll meet it awake
I’m not dreaming
I stayed this way
Outro
Morning finds me
Still breathing
Still here.