What it’s like

My journey is my journey

It was never yours to carry

Still I walk these roads alone

Even when the room feels crowded

I hold people close to my heart

More than they could ever know

Give my last piece just to save them

While my own soul feels cold

How can you have good people

And still feel alone?

Maybe when you grow up surviving

You never learn how to be held

People like us carry everybody

Like the world rests on our back

Always the first one they call on

But nobody asks where we’re at

I wonder what it feels like

To finally let go

To know somebody’s got you

Without having to beg for hope

Just one moment of peace

One breath without the weight

Just existing, not drowning

Not always having to be brave

I wanna know that feeling

Of someone staying when I break

Holding me together softly

Instead of watching me fade

I became the savior

Cause nobody came for me

Learned to hide the hurting

Under “I’m okay” and a smile weakly

And every time I needed shelter

I built it for someone else

Cause loving people came easy

But loving myself never helped

Maybe one day

I’ll stop carrying oceans in my chest

Maybe one day

Rest won’t feel so undeserved

Maybe love won’t feel temporary

Maybe care won’t feel borrowed

Maybe somebody will hold me

Like I mattered tomorrow

I wonder what it’s like

To breathe and not just survive

To be loved so deeply

I don’t have to fight to feel alive

Till then I’ll keep on walking

Heart open even when it aches

Cause people like me keep giving

Even when we got nothing left to save