[Verse 1]
Phone on
face down
screen still bleeding
Bad news
same town
same old feeling
Ashtray
overflowing
like my head
Every little thought
says I’m better off dead
Late texts
left read
I don’t even blame you
Can’t fix
my mess
if the mess just became you
Bedroom smells
like the nights I stayed awake
Praying for a break
that I know I’m gonna break
[Chorus]
I’m drowning in despair
and it’s pulling me under (pulling me under)
Breathing in fear
like water in my lungs
If I scream your name
it just comes out thunder
Every word I say
gets swallowed, comes undone
I’m drowning in despair
and I’m too tired to run
[Verse 2]
Cut ties
burned bridges
now I live in the smoke
Laugh lines
turned stitches
every smile is a choke
My reflection
keeps asking what I’ve done
I keep lying
like “I’m fine, it’s just for fun”
Friends call
I let it ring
‘til it dies out
Can’t talk
‘cause I don’t know
what to cry ‘bout
Whole world
moving on
and I stay
Stuck in the dark
where I put myself away
[Chorus]
I’m drowning in despair
and it’s pulling me under (yeah, under)
Breathing in fear
like water in my lungs
If I scream your name
it just comes out thunder
Every word I say
gets swallowed, comes undone
I’m drowning in despair
and I’m too tired to run
[Bridge]
How do you save
what never learned to live?
How do you heal
what you won’t forgive? (oh)
If hope is a hand
reaching through the black
I’m the one
who keeps pulling it back
[Chorus]
I’m drowning in despair
and it’s pulling me under
Breathing in fear
like water in my lungs
If I scream your name
it just comes out thunder
Every word I say
gets swallowed, comes undone
I’m drowning in despair
and I don’t trust the sun