Conundrum

Should i stay

Should i go

Do i matter

How will i know

Trust my feelings

Theyve done me wrong

But be alone

That wont last long

I can feel it

It feels quite real

But emotions lie

And lack appeal

Lead with my head

Deny my heart

Done that before

Got torn apart

What is my goal

Should i have one

Is that too clinical

Should i have fun

Im far too old

For all these doubts

So many say

Should be figured out

But why ask them

Look at their lives

Forever chasing

Some illusive prize

Forever and always

Wanting more

I cant see a purpose

If that's all its for

In the silence

In the dark

I sort me out

I make a start

Theres so much light

And so much noise

Its overwhelming

Cant make a choice

Whats so wrong

With choosing ME

Fall in love with life

And just live happily

Who am i kidding

Thats never worked

So I must decide

Who thinks im a jerk.

...its gonna be someone.