You didn’t have to.
You didn’t have to break me, y’know
You didn’t have to make me cry and shake
Begging for you to stop while I lay
Paralyzed on the bed
Sprawled out for all to see
I’m sure, even God knew that what you were doing was bad
We don’t even believe in him
Part of me wished that maybe if I believed in him more
Things would have ended sooner
Safety arrived with the sound of a pin-drop
One month after the “break”
I don’t think you ever thought about me
With tears in my eyes,
You cradled me with sickness and rot
Leaking from your hands.
You put on my childhood shows
Just to watch me fall back and depend on you.
You took away my independence
Being socialized was a gift
He picked me up from where you laid me,
Brushed the dust and dirt off of me,
And showed me reality.
He gave me light,
A clear pathway to people I strive to be around forever.
You wouldn’t have done that
Even now, still, I doubt that you care
The only care you gave me was your teeth,
Sinking into my skin again and again
You really, didn’t have to.