You didn’t have to

You didn’t have to.

You didn’t have to break me, y’know

You didn’t have to make me cry and shake

Begging for you to stop while I lay

Paralyzed on the bed

Sprawled out for all to see

I’m sure, even God knew that what you were doing was bad

We don’t even believe in him

Part of me wished that maybe if I believed in him more

Things would have ended sooner

Safety arrived with the sound of a pin-drop

One month after the “break”

I don’t think you ever thought about me

With tears in my eyes,

You cradled me with sickness and rot

Leaking from your hands.

You put on my childhood shows

Just to watch me fall back and depend on you.

You took away my independence

Being socialized was a gift

He picked me up from where you laid me,

Brushed the dust and dirt off of me,

And showed me reality.

He gave me light,

A clear pathway to people I strive to be around forever.

You wouldn’t have done that

Even now, still, I doubt that you care

The only care you gave me was your teeth,

Sinking into my skin again and again

You really, didn’t have to.