Numb Where Love Should Be” (Part 3)

Title: “Numb Where Love Should Be” (Part 3)

…mm…

You ever wanna cry… and not even know how? (how…)

Everybody keep saying, “Just let ’em love you…” (just let ’em…)

I wish it was that easy… (yeah…)

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I’m tired of pretending I’m okay… (I’m tired…)

Putting on a smile every single day… (every day…)

Everybody think I’m hard to reach… (so far…)

Truth is… I can’t even reach me… (can’t reach…)

I stare in the mirror, asking why… (why…)

Looking for tears that never arrive… (they don’t…)

My heart beating, but it feels asleep… (so numb…)

Like somebody stole that part of me… (they did…)

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I don’t know what I’m waiting for… (I don’t…)

Been standing outside my own heart’s door… (locked out…)

I hear you knocking patiently… (I hear you…)

But I don’t know if there’s anything left of me… (nothing left…)

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I’m numb where love should be… (so numb…)

Praying something wakes in me… (please wake…)

I wanna feel what everybody feels… (I do…)

But my heart forgot what’s real… (forgot…)

I’m screaming quiet in my head… (so loud…)

Trying to love, but nothing spreads… (nothing…)

If healing ever calls my name… (one day…)

I hope my heart don’t run away… (don’t run…)

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You deserved sunsets, not the rain… (not the rain…)

Someone who could love without the pain… (without it…)

Instead you got these empty hands… (empty…)

Holding pieces I don’t understand… (I don’t…)

Sometimes I wonder if I’m scared… (maybe…)

Or maybe nothing’s really there… (nothing…)

I keep searching every little beat… (searching…)

For a feeling that’ll finally find me… (find me…)

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Look…

Everybody think time gon’ fix it… (they do…)

But time just taught me how to hide with it… (hide…)

I laugh loud so they don’t notice… (nah…)

Inside my soul been losing focus… (gone…)

I’m tired of saying, “I’m alright”… (I’m not…)

When every morning feel like night… (so dark…)

I ain’t asking you to save my soul… (don’t…)

I’m just hoping one day I’ll feel whole… (one day…)

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Maybe love still lives somewhere… (somewhere…)

Under all this hurt I wear… (underneath…)

Maybe one day I’ll believe… (I will…)

That my heart ain’t leaving me… (don’t leave…)

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I’m numb where love should be… (still numb…)

But I don’t wanna stay this me… (I don’t…)

If tomorrow gives my heart a chance… (one chance…)

Maybe I’ll finally learn romance… (maybe…)

Until that day, I’ll tell the truth… (the truth…)

’Cause you deserve somebody who… (you do…)

Can love you with their whole heartbeat… (all of it…)

While I keep searching… for the one inside of me… (inside of me…)

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If my heart ever wakes up… (one day…)

I hope it remembers how to love… (remember…)

And if it doesn’t… (mm…)

At least I stopped pretending… (yeah…)

…I’m numb where love should be…