Voice Notes

Phone light blinking while I'm tying little shoes
Life moving fast but my heart still confused
Babydad talking reckless like he doesn't know my name
Respect went missin somewhere in the game
I'm just trying to raise love in a heavy place
With a thousand different feelings on my face
Phone ding again — voice note this time
Studio session, different rap same rhyme
Every beat sound like something we shouldn't try
But music got a way of reading between the lines
Then there’s you… yeah the one that dropped the ball
Said I deserved better but you backed off
Now the version that loved you don't exist
You had access once… now you missed
My best friend fighting the same damn fight
Two good people loving wrong every night
Maybe I cross lines when the silence gets loud
Maybe attention pulls me out the clouds
Maybe I'm healing in ways that look wrong
So I turn every feeling into a song
Need a minute to myself, feeling overtouched 
Kinda need fucked, kinda over love
Need a distraction, minds overloaded
Too many feelings and nowhere to hold it
Smile on my face but inside explosive
Said I wanna do it then said I was joking
It's something about you - I can't stay focused
Every voice note - got my mind floatin
Eyes closing but my heart racing fast
Trying to sleep but voice notes keep playing back
I know I'm not supposed to want you
But my soul just wants you bad
I don't wanna be wrong but you might be what I never had
Something in your voice make the chaos in me breathe
Ever since I met you old boy seem weak
Now I'm questioning the love meant for me
Maybe if I keep searching I'll find more
Maybe I deserve what I ain't had before
Late night quiet, house finally asleep
Thoughts in my head make me wanna leave
Too many years giving love I never recieved
I'll break these chains eventually
Every step feel like learning how to breathe
(phone dings)
Phone light buzzing on the night stand
Another voice note… now I'm smiling like damn
Your voice in my ear got me switching my plans
I just wanna make you proud of me
So I turn every feeling into a melody
Cause what do I look like catching these things
Knowing damn well that ain't part of the scheme 
Maybe I just need a fix, 
Something in your voice got me leaning toward the risk
Im just tryna find the kind of love that finally feels legit
He say I jump from dick to dick… I'm just trying to find a fit
I'm not crazy, I'm just human and I keep it honest
Say what's on my mind even if the truth feels toxic
Let the beat drop cause I'm out of words
Let the 808s talk — replay what you heard

Female rap talk R&B, Drake x Cardi B vibe,  heavy 808s