My Friend

(Verse 1)

Key card failed, I tried again

Hallway buzz, the night pressed in

Your coat there on the chair by mine

City breathing through the blinds

I told myself I came to see

Just a face that still knew me

But the door shut soft and slow

And my chest already knew

(Pre-Chorus)

I felt the pull, I felt the lie

I knew the truth, I wouldn’t try

(Chorus)

I had it right where I wanted

One step close, one word away

Your name heavy in the silence

Like something I shouldn’t say

I could’ve moved, you didn’t stop

I was ready to bend

I had it right where I wanted

But all I needed was my friend

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(Verse 2)

We talked light, we talked around

Reminisced ’bout dragons downed

Your knee brushed mine, didn’t move

That said more than words could do

I watched the clock bleed into red

Counted things I never said

Every second asking why

Every reason said goodbye

(Pre-Chorus)

Desire said, “just let it fall”

Something deeper said, “not at all”

(Chorus (Shortened, softer))

I had it right where I wanted

Just a moment asking why

If I crossed that line between us

There’d be no turning back

I could’ve stayed, you would’ve stayed

That’s the part that scared me most

I had it right where I wanted

So I let the moment go

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(Bridge)

Gena, your name still burns my chest

Like truth I never second-guessed

But want ain’t love if it leaves a scar

Or turns us into what we aren’t

Some lines don’t break when left alone

Some doors stay clean if not pushed open

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(Final Chorus (Full Band Comes In))

I had it right where I wanted

Every reason to forget

But I don’t want a memory

I only look at with regret

So I stood up, grabbed my keys

Let the quiet talk instead

I had it right where I wanted

But what I wanted was my friend

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(Outro (Drop Back to Guitar Only))

That room still hums inside my head

With everything we never said

But I walk away still whole somehow

And wholly still your friend