[Verse 1] You say it's "all in my head" like I picked this pain from a shelf like I woke up, chose to suffer and started lying to myself You roll your eyes when I'm shaking tell me "stop being so dramatic" but you ain't inside these spirals you don't drown in this static I didn't ask for the panic for my chest to turn to stone for my brain to run in circles til my body feels unknown You keep calling it a story like I'm acting for a crowd but I'm crying in the bathroom just for turning my thoughts down [Chorus] Wish I didn't think this way wish I felt enough 'cause I'm sitting right beside you but I'm starving for your love You say I'm just making it up that it's all in my head but I'd give anything, anything just to feel okay instead I'm feeling unloved, it fucking destroys me tears on the pillow, nobody hears me If this is pretend, then why am I breaking? God, if it's fake, why does everything shake me? [Verse 2] You tell me "just be grateful" like I ain't tried that every night counting blessings on my fingers while I'm losing every fight You don't see the way I'm begging for my mind to let me sleep how I bargain with the ceiling promise secrets I can't keep You call it drama, I call it survival I'm not chasing titles I'm just trying not to spiral Wish you saw the way I flinch when you say I'm being weak how your words turn into weapons and they echo for a week I don't need you to fix it I just need you to believe that this hurt is heavy metal and it's crushing how I breathe [Chorus] Wish I didn't think this way wish I felt enough 'cause I'm sitting right beside you but I'm starving for your love You say I'm just making it up that it's all in my head but I'd give anything, anything just to feel okay instead I'm feeling unloved, it fucking destroys me heart on the floor and nobody warns me If this is pretend, then why am I shaking? God, if it's fake, why does everything break me? [Bridge] If I could trade this brain I'd hand it over in a second (yeah) give you every ugly thought let you feel this disconnection (uh) Maybe then you'd stop saying that I'm choosing how I bleed maybe then you'd stop calling my emergency a need I'm not asking you for pity I'm just begging to be seen 'cause your "it's all in your head" is the cruelest thing you mean [Chorus] Wish I didn't think this way wish I felt enough 'cause I'm sitting right beside you but I'm starving for your love You say I'm just making it up that it's all in my head but I'm fighting every day just to stay out of the red I'm feeling unloved, it fucking destroys me I keep on talking, but silence employs me If this is pretend, then why am I crying? If it's in my head, why do I feel like I'm dying?

rap, Moody hip-hop with intimate male vocals, swung drums and a detuned bell loop; verses ride a close, confessional pocket with sparse bass and light piano stabs, hook opens into layered harmonies and a wider low end, ad-libs tucked behind the lead to amplify pain and resolve, final chorus adds filtered drums and extra doubles for a raw, breaking-point climax, hip hop

Unloved In My Head