Begging yourself

They tell you to survive they tell you to thrive but deep down inside you know you wanna die, but you can’t because of everything you wanna live for and who you’re surviving for looking at yourself in the mirror you’re disappointed of what you’re becoming. No one wants to see what you really are with the demons in your brain with the happiness and love that surrounds you. They tell you to be happy. They tell you to look past the pain and trauma that they caused you. They say it’s your fault when in reality, they were the ones that caused you all the suffering and make you not recognize who you are anymore who said it’s fair in this life beggars can’t be choosers. This is a life you’re dealt with either you make it or break it either you make it or break it generations after generations were still the black sheep, but he become the underdog and shove our way through failure. Keep your head up. We’re gonna make it in our own mental war. The war inside our heads determines if we wanna die or just thrive when the little us just wanted family that put away their unlawful crimes towards the innocent eyes innocent, who said you were innocent being blamed for their problems and hard times fair who said it’s fair in this life beggars can’t be choosers. This is a life you’re dealt with either you make it or break Either you make it or break they tell you to be happy. They tell you to look past over the pain and trauma that they caused you. They say it’s your fault when in reality they were the ones that caused you all the suffering and making you not recognize who you are anymore