I Just Can’t Walk Away From My Best Friend

I married my best friend but we never learned how to become lovers. We stay together because we made a vow but is that enough to keep this union. Part of me wants to walk away: but how do you walk away from your best friend? I know I deserve to know love in an intimate way; but I find it hard to leave my best friend. My heart is torn into pieces; I want to experience that loving feeling that I dint get from him. But I just can’t walk away from my friend. I want someone who hold me like they never want to let me go. I don’t get that feeling with him. But I just can’t walk away from my best friend. We’ve shared a life for decades and this is the life I have lived. I need more but I just can’t walk away from my best friend. It’s painful to stay but I’m afraid of facing the pain if I walk away from my best friend.