(Verse 1)
Smoke in my lungs, blood in my head
Still sleep on your side of the bed
Your ghost moves in like the cold night air
Whispers your name, but you’re not there
I trace your letters on fogged-up glass
Replayin’ the fight, the words, the crash
If pain was love, then I was true
I’d sell my soul just to talk to you
(Pre-Chorus)
You’re a shadow now in every light
A dream that dies again each night
They say “move on,” but they don’t see
You were the only home in me
(Chorus)
I’d kill to have you back — no metaphor
Kick down heaven, even up the score
Dig through hell with broken hands
If I could just undo the end
I’d trade my heart, my breath, my truth
If I could lie forever next to you
Yeah, I’d kill to have you back —
Even if it kills me too
(Verse 2)
This house is haunted with your laugh
I talk to walls, they just talk back
My friends all say I’m losing grip
But they don’t know what real love is
You were the blade and the bandage too
A war I fought, and still I’d lose
I wear your hoodie like a cross
Swear I’d die to take that loss
(Pre-Chorus)
Your name still cuts like glass on skin
I keep your voicemail on repeat again
You said, “Forever,” I took the vow
But forever’s just a ghost now
(Chorus)
I’d kill to have you back — no metaphor
Kick down heaven, even up the score
Dig through hell with broken hands
If I could just undo the end
I’d trade my heart, my breath, my truth
If I could lie forever next to you
Yeah, I’d kill to have you back —
Even if it kills me too
(Bridge – whispered/screamed)
Tell me where you are — I’ll follow
Even if it’s dark and hollow
Even if there’s no return
I’d rather burn, I’d rather burn
(Final Chorus – stripped down, raw)
I’d kill to have you back — hear me now
I’d tear the stars out of the clouds
If death meant waking next to you
Then baby, I’d be dying too
One grave ain’t deep enough for this truth
So dig a place for me next to you
I’d kill to have you back…
Even if it kills me too