Heavy is the Heart

[Verse 1 – low, controlled, tired energy]
I carry ghosts in the lining of my coat
Every word I never said sittin’ heavy in my throat
Got a past that bites back every time I get close
To a version of me that I hate the most

I built my walls out of fire and pride
Lit every bridge just to feel alive
Now the smoke still follows everywhere I go
Guess you don’t outrun what you already know

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[Verse 2 – building, more bite]
Hands still shaking from the weight I hold
All the lies I lived, all the truths I sold
I was sharp like glass, yeah I cut too deep
Left a trail of damage I still can’t sweep

Every scar got a story I wrote in rage
Every name I lost still echoes my name
And I tried to bury it, tried to pretend
But the past don’t die, it just waits again

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[Chorus – strong, gritty, emotional release]
Heavy is the heart that remembers it all
Every rise I took, every time I would fall
Every broken piece I left in the dark
Yeah, heavy… heavy is the heart

Heavy is the soul tryna learn how to heal
From the damage I did and the things I still feel
I wear every sin like a permanent mark
Yeah, heavy… heavy is the heart

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[Verse 3 – quieter, reflective drop]
There’s a girl I see when I close my eyes
She’s reckless, cruel, dressed up in disguise
She didn’t know love, only how to fight
So she burned every hand that reached out in light

And I hate her face but I know it’s mine
Every flaw, every fault, every crossed line
But if I erase her, then I erase me
And I’m finally learning what that means

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[Rap Bridge – aggressive, fast, reclaiming power]
Yeah
I was venom in a pretty little vial
Smilin’ while I burned it all down for a while
No accountability, running from truth
Blamed the world for the shit I would do

Now I face it, no mask, no disguise
Every ugly reflection lookin’ me in the eyes
I own it, I broke it, I said what I said
And I carry the weight of the blood that I bled

But I’m not that ghost, I buried that name
Forged in the fire, I rewired the pain
So if I rise now, understand the cost—
Every step forward paid for the loss

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[Break – soft, almost whispered]
I’m sorry…
To every heart I touched and tore apart…

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[Final Chorus – big, emotional, full power]
Heavy is the heart that remembers it all
Every rise I took, every time I would fall
But I’m piecing together what I tore apart
Still heavy… but it’s finally a start

Heavy is the soul but I’m learning to heal
Facing every wound instead of running the feel
I was lost in the dark, now I’m finding my spark
Yeah, heavy… heavy is the heart

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[Outro – fading, raw, softer tone]
Heavy…
But it beats…
Still beats…

dark punk boho, gritty feminine edge, raw vocals + light rap switch, ~118 BPM), female