Broken

a lot is on my mind, but at the same time I feel like I can't think straight. my heart is broken, bleeding and feels like it will never recover, every day I wake up with hopes of starting my healing process and learning to love again but instead I feel broken and shitty. keep asking myself was ever enough and was I ever loved, or that someone was just passing time withme. Tell me how do I move on, how do I tell my heart she is not the one?. because I still love her, I still think about her, I still care about her. please help me forget about her and let go of the anger I have. For it is time to love, time to move on, time to let go. although it tears my heart, .but I have to be strong enough for the future me, to not hold gradges, that will destroy future relationships...A lot is on mind, and I'm still broken, I'm still hurt, I'm so disappointed, As I gave you my all, loved you,respected you, care for you, supported you, and all I asked for was love, respect and loyalty and all I asked for was love, respect and loyalty from you. now look at us, we cannot even stand to be in one room together or even make eye contact , it impossible to believe that you and I are over. because I saw my soulmate in you the mother of my children, my wife, my life partner. little did I know you had other plans, that didn't involve me, your soulmate.