Verse 1]
Twenty years in these same rooms
Same old fights, same old wounds
Four kids raised inside these walls
While me and you just watched it fall
You got this house in your name
For everything wrong i take the blame
Every tear and every line
Got left in here with yours and mine
I've had one foot out that door
I ve had nowhere to go before
[Chorus]
I am not here cause I love you still
Everything keeps going downhill
I dream of packing up and walking away
There is nothing mine left for me to stay
If this house was mine, you'd be gone
I would've left you so long ago
But im still here cause I'm stuck inside
Not cause there's love left here to hide
[Verse 2]
I remember who I was
Before I learned to live like this
I had a spark, i had a voice
I wouldn't stay without a choice
But now I bend so we don't break
Smile through every small heartache
But deep inside I know the truth
I should've walked away from you
Every night I lay awake
Dreaming 'bout what road I'd take
[Chorus]
I ain't here cause I love you now
I'm here cause I don't know how
To pack it up and walk away
With nothing mine to let me stay
If this house was mine, you'd be gone
I would've left you long ago
I'm only here cause I'm stuck inside
Not cause there's love left here to hide
[Bridge]
Every time we would fight, you raise your voice
Say "this is My house" like I got a choice
Laughing at me and tell me go
Knowing damn well I got nowhere to go
You say get out like I got somewhere to be
But you had chains that were holding me
Finally I am not scared to leave
And you'll be talking to empty rooms instead of me
[Outro]
I ain't here cause I love you now
But I'm learning how, I'm learning how
To pack it up and walk away
And finally find my own place to stay
When I get a home I can call mine
I'll leave this house and this life behind
And you'll be standing where I used to cry
Watching me finally say goodbye