Favorite Song

Asked me, how I’m doing, and I can’t, say it out loud—, bottled everything up, can’t swallow, up my pride, keep my head, towards the sky now, knowing that inside—, I just, wanna shout but, ain’t no time, for second chances, and I understand—, wasn’t in the plan, so I gotta do, my best, to move on—, I’m fine, all day but, when I make it home, the illusion, disappears—, and the walls, start caving in, giving everything, that I have, just to fight back—, all these tears, seems like a dream, beautiful at times, but when, the sun goes down, and scene changes, to a nightmare, that I can’t escape—, when will it end, world trapped, in a tailspin, feeling that can’t shake—, everything, I once had, gone with the wind, mind stuck, in overload—, full speed ahead, with the, blinders on, straight down, a one way road—, ignoring, every sign, red flag, after flag, still want you back, by my side, try to, right my wrongs,—, knew it, wouldn’t be long, had our time, now it’s gone—, every time, the phone rings, I’m hoping, it will be you—, on the other end, of the line, when it’s not, I mute the call—,

You text and said, hey-, how are you, I responded, just fine—, you countered, are you sure, like you knew, I was lying—, I can’t tell the truth, because, I think about you, all the time—, I miss you, and still wanna, kiss you all the time, can’t forget you—, can’t get you, off my mind,

Love listening, to your melody like—, la— la la la, da da da, la— da da da—, thats my, favorite sound, singing, you’re my favorite, you’re my, favorite song,

Disappointed, all I wanted, was love, something, consistent, like the sun rise—, depended on, and unconditional, predictable, rise before fall, last call—, remember when, we were young, newlyweds, loving life, now I just, wanna dial, your number twice—, leave message saying, hey I’m missing you, but I can’t, refuse to say it, out loud—, so I wrote it down, and put it in a song, knowing, you’re the only one—, that left a mark, imprinted on my heart, permanent impression—, learned another, life lesson, that I won’t forget, every moment spent, taught me how, to love myself—, more than, anything else, then use whatever spills, from the overflow—, from here on out, I prioritize as, number one admitting, it was fun—, while it lasted, came and went, quicker than, remembered—, sorta fast, like the system crashed, overnight you changed, downloaded patch—, came with a glitch, and it’s strange, how quick, bonds were broken—, tore apart, wasn’t able, to restart, stuck up, on that blue screen—, of death, now I sit here, by myself, lost in thought, feelings unresolved—, heart burning, like a molotov, mind spending, going round in circles—, bigger than the moon, elephant, up in the room, was planning on—, taking all these words, to the tomb, good afternoon, miss our morning too—, cause it’s been a while, hellos and goodbyes, thinking bout your smile,