Giving up is easy

I'm not sure exactly around where
But I know she's out there
With or without brown hair
I can't sit and wait like a lounge chair
I have to keep searching I'm now aware
Too much time I've been wasting it
Across all gradients
Her presence full of radiance
To me she is regarded in salience
She has a heart of gold
I start to not feel dark and cold
In every part of my soul
It's sad that carnage grows
Yet truly amazing how karma goes
I was down a path battling the hardest throes
Then I stopped and said it
She deserves lots of credit
Difficult to say if she got the message
And if what I meant was or was not effective
Beside all these pots and pans
Having honor can
Turn you into a stronger man
For you I offer my hand
Originally something I couldn't grasp
Now I've understood that
No need to always look back
Hard times should pass
In the present it's nice to share some good laughs
Sure at some point I could crash
But that's life not everything would last
Outlooks and outcomes always seemed grim and rough
The never ending pressure like I never did enough
I was beginning to get sick of much
But with a bit of luck
Plus willpower helped get rid of stuff
Since it's easy to give up
Yet to always go on and live is tough
Next thing you know it's all gone into dust
Funny how it's so different with her
My life doesn't wither
I always thought I'd be chopped liver
That the end would not differ
My choices were an odd mixture
Drowned my sorrows in lots of liquor
Was still lost no elixir
Until I finally got the picture
I was headed toward the gravesite
She helped change my way of life
With more than great advice
Day and night
She's a ray of light
When I went to break the ice
I figured she'd tell me to take a hike
But what she had to say was nice
"At times we all face a plight
May pay the price
Yet we can still make it right"

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