A decade of rain

I packed my life in cardboard boxes and a dream
Crossed the ocean just to be the missing piece of your machine
In that loud crazy town where the stars feel out of reach
I learned the lessons that the Sunday mass couldn't teach
We had a stroller in the corner and a fire in the hearth
But the distance in your eyes kept you away from me on earth 
I was speaking in a tongue that your heart didn't want to know
Trying to plant a garden where the winter wouldn't let it grow

It wasn't that I didn't love you with every beat and every breath
It wasn't that I feared the struggle or the coldness of a death
It was just the wrong season for a flower made of sun
To bloom inside a race that we had never even begun
You'll never see the depth of it, the ocean in my soul
How a decade hasn't filled the space or made the broken whole

Now our girl has got your shoulders and the way you always smile
I see you in her gestures every single little while
Eleven years of silence, eleven years of separate lives
But the ghost of what we could have been still cuts me like a knife
I traded my whole world to stand beside you in the dust
To prove that there was something more than simple wanderlust
But you saw a stranger when you looked across the kitchen floor
While I was busy locking up every single other door

It wasn't that I didn't love you with every beat and every breath
It wasn't that I feared the struggle or the coldness of a death
It was just the wrong season for a flower made of sun
To bloom inside a race that we had never even begun
You'll never see the depth of it, the ocean in my soul
How a decade hasn't filled the space or made the broken whole

Time is just a measure of the things we didn't say
Like how I'd do it all again just to have one more yesterday
But the clock moves on and the borders stand so tall
And I'm still the only one who remembers the rise and the fall

It wasn't that I didn't love you with every beat and every breath
It wasn't that I feared the struggle or the coldness of a death
It was just the wrong season for a flower made of sun
To bloom inside a race that we had never even begun
You'll never see the depth of it, the ocean in my soul
How a decade hasn't filled the space or made the broken wholeEleven years apart and I'm still drowning in the blue
You'll never know the half of how I'm still in love with you
Just the wrong time, baby
Just the wrong time

female. Country rock. Sentimental. Lyrical. Romantic. Depressive