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She keeps lying but I I love her and I can't leave I feel like all my words are genuine while her words are just to deceive, but if I stay I'm doing nothing but tearing myself apart piece by piece, but how do I speak on it meanwhile trying to keep the peace? I can't go to my friends because their response is "man you need to leave". But I can't do that because without her it feels like I can't breathe, but it's hard to let go of the hurt and anger, I feel like I wouldn't be wrong if I was to cheat but that would feel like Im tearing down everything we built and I'd be full of guilt or should I say fuck it and run through em like Wilt. She keeps lying but I love her and I can't leave she tells me she loves me but I don't know what to believe.The whole situation is fucked up and it's making me cold but I don't want to keep holding on to shit that's so old.