Ashes and Apologies

Verse 1

Woke up to ashes in the mirror,

The woman staring back is one I barely fucking know.

Childhood fighting, drunk nights, shouting bitter,

Family wild and broken, nowhere left to go.

Rearview fills with places I once called home,

Me and mom, raging, each fucked up and alone.

I grew up moving, never had a damn place to belong,

Learned to scrap for love, learned to spit it in a song.

Hook 1

Burned it down so many times, damn near lost track of flames,

But every time the smoke clears, still choking on the shame.

Pre-Chorus

I’m tired of running from my own fucked up past,

Writing sorry on a whiskey bottle, hope this time it lasts.

Fucked it up with lovers, family, friends,

But quitting’s not a choice—this fighter won’t bend.

Chorus

Left my life in ashes, sorry falls short—

Words can’t fix burned bridges or cover all the hurt I brought.

But I’m still standing in the smoke, reaching for light,

If redemption’s a battle, I’ll fuckin’ fight.

Verse 2

Saw the pain in my babies’ eyes,

Swore I’d face my demons, no more lineup of lies.

Addiction was survival, numbing years of hurt,

But truth’s a cold slap that grinds me in the dirt.

I regret not being the mom they fucking deserve,

But every sober day’s a promise—every tear, every nerve.

Hook 2

You can’t see my struggle every damn time I pretend,

But even beat down, I’m fighting to ascend.

Verse 3

Spent cold nights parked under GP stars,

Running from myself, praying just to get far.

Heard every rumor, felt every fucking scar in me,

Kept holding strong even when hope was hard to see.

A voice in my head said, “girl, don’t you quit,”

For my babies I’ll keep fighting—storm or black pit.

Bridge

See your faces in the night,

You deserved better, I was lost in the fight.

Carrying guilt and pain I just can’t leave behind,

If forgiveness is real, I’ll chase it blind.

Rap Verse

Let too many down, smoked out my own truth,

Promises broken, words I never fucking spoke.

Used to drown the sorrow just to feel numb,

But pain comes crawling when the daylight comes.

One day at a time, that’s all I’ve learned—

Trying to earn back every bridge I burned.

Chorus

Left my life in ashes, sorry falls short—

Words can’t fix burned bridges or cover all the hurt I brought.

But I’m still standing in the smoke, reaching for light,

If redemption’s a battle, I’ll fuckin’ fight.

Outro

Sorry for the ashes, sorry for the pain,

Trying to rise up, fighting through the rain.

If this road to redemption is hard, I’ll take it—

For my babies, for my heart, I promise I’ll make it.